This past week I've been super obsessed with Katy Perry's Nylon Magazine photoshoot from 2010.
It makes me inspired to wear more happy things. Things that make me smile. Such as.... bows, the color lavender, polka dots, pink milky skin & black hair, minnie mouse, girly Flintstones bones, & doll eyes.
As I'm typing this I'm listening to Dynamite by Sky Ferreira on repeat. It makes me feel electric & inspired to write this post. I haven't felt as inspired as I am right now for a long time, & I think I was in a depressed state. I wasn't happy, I was questioning a lot of things, & nothing inspired me. I felt the need to be as plain as possible for what I'm aspiring to be, which is not me. I love what I'm aspiring to do & my career, but my career shouldn't stop me from being me or stop me from dressing like myself. I was afraid to be myself & dress like myself because I felt like it would hurt my career, but what it was really doing was hurting myself & my inspiration.
I was afraid that I was over dressing. I was afraid that people would think that I was trying to impress or steal the show by wearing what I like to wear.... like bows on my head or polka dots on my tights. When I dressed plain, I felt naked & bare. I didn't feel like myself. I felt insecure about myself I didn't feel confident as I did when I wore what I liked to wear.
I may be an actor & I may have to dress like & live other people's lives on camera, but when I'm off camera I need to feel comfortable to be me. Because as an actor, living a life of a character, I should be comfortable being that character & living that character's life, & when I can't be comfortable being myself how can I be comfortable being someone else on camera(I know I may sound crazy & what I'm typing doesn't make sense, but this is how my mind works, haha).
By not showing who I was, I hurt my craft, my passion, & my performances.
I don't want to waste time not being me & being uninspired. Life is too short to worry about that.
I am in love with the art of acting & each time I act I fall in love with it even more. But as much as I love acting I need to be happy being myself & not be afraid that people are going to think I'm crazy or unprofessional for wearing a bow on the top of my head(not something crazy or over the top). I love being professional & being nice to people, but I think that as long as I'm not hurting anyone I'm fine.
As of now I feel an overload of inspiration which makes me happy. I'm also happy because this post turned into something better than what it was supposed to turn into.
It's amazing how a picture or a couple of pictures can inspire something that can inspire another thing that soon turns into a chain of things. By that being said, be inspired, by the world, everything around you. Sometimes when I'm not inspired I'll spend hours on Tumblr looking through pictures that have inspired me in the past or listen to songs that have inspired me. I hope that you felt some bit of inspiration from reading my post. Inspiration is so important. It helps me to keep going.
It keeps me happy & content.
Please stay inspired.
Sorsha xo